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2007-12-30 10:40 pm
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this is how a star's made [Angels Zodiac canon]

Yep, this happened.

Once, Wild and Kaos are drifting aimlessly through Neptune’s atmosphere, still wired from a sparring match. Kaos is always a little more open, less of the hardened warrior, at these times.

Kaos tells her that they once died together – the two of them, and Destiny, who hasn’t come back to them yet. Wild doesn’t remember it. She only remembers her time as a wolf.

Kaos has had a few lifetimes since then, and she tells Wild the story.

There was a tear, a break in this universe, she says. The kind of distortion that a black hole produces, with nothing at the center – true nothing, emptiness that shouldn’t be able to exist, she adds, and shudders when she says it. It had to be repaired, but it would take a great deal of power – three lives’ worth of power. The Lioness made the choice: Virgo, Aquarius, and Pisces did the honors. Together, they gave their memories up, and their powers with them.

“That is that star,” she says, and points upward, to a brilliant point of light just sunward of Orion. “Our lives.”

Wild contemplates the star. “Was is worth it?”

With no hesitation, Kaos answers, “Yes.”

Wild is unable to be so sure.
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2007-12-30 10:32 pm
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in our stars [Angels Zodiac canon]

It seems that I need to split my canon off from my fanfic, because I often decide later that old fics are out of character. Therefore retcons whee! But this? This is canon. Caution: may contain plot.

Kaos is out flying patrol when she all but slams into Fury’s floating castle. She spins backward, orienting herself to it. It’s both larger and darker than it was when it was still part of Mars. Fury is no longer what she was, and her home shows that. Even the aura – Kaos can hardly see the place.

She doubles back, because the first thing she should do is tell the Lady Leo that she’s found her sister. She doesn’t get far, though. Before she can get far enough away to teleport, something big and black and sharp runs into her and she has to spin on a wing-tip and get her feet on the castle, so that the stars are ‘up’.

The castle walls, old as the planets, are a dull ache through the soles of her boots. She stays down anyway, quietly bringing her staff to bear – she’ll take the discomfort for the cover offered by the decorations.

The big black sharp thing is one of Fury’s ravens, Kaos doesn’t know which. Doesn’t matter. It will have recognized her and that it’ll be wanting to take her to its master. She isn’t planning on going. She has no idea what Fury is capable of.

Behind her, something twitches on the edge of her perception. A wing and a shadow – the other raven. The distraction is just enough that the first one is able to dive toward her before she can attack. She swings her staff half-circle and uses the momentum to get out of its way, but it catches her on the leg. Broken.

It’ll heal but she can’t touch down. The other comes up beneath her in the half-second it takes her to assess the injury and flies straight into the blade of her staff. It screams, and feathers fly everywhere as it disappears.

It’ll have gone right back to Fury, but she can’t worry about that right now, there’s the first one to worry about and it’s on her all of a sudden and just as she brings her foot down on its wing, the shadows of the castle itself come out for her and her wings get fouled up in their blackness. She struggles, but it’s useless. Fury is a lot older than she is.

“Kaos,” she hears, and freezes, trying impossibly to hide her aura. Fury strides up the side of the castle with heels clicking, wearing a completely impractical dress of black silk and lace. Of course, she doesn’t need to be practical. This is her territory, and Kaos has just trespassed. If Fury wants her dead, she has very little choice in the matter.

“I wonder if you came here deliberately. But then you won’t tell me, will you?”

Kaos shakes her head and returns her mind to the somewhat futile task of getting her wings free.

“That’s okay, I’m sure I can talk for both of us.” Fury leans forward. “I want to know why you’re still on Leo’s side.”

Kaos ignores her, or tries to. She’s heard this argument a hundred times before and she doesn’t intend to start paying attention to it now, but Fury is very attention-getting. Especially when her shadows are pressing Kaos against her castle wall, and she’s about two inches from Kaos’s face.

“My sister is dangerous to us. She’s irrational. Uncaring. Despotic, even. Haven’t you noticed? How did you get those scars, Kaos? How have you died, the last three times? Don’t bother answering, I know.”

Kaos died, an uncountable number of times, doing her duty. The last time her body was two hundred and three and she threw herself in the path of an oncoming fire spell. The time before last her body was ninety-eight and the last thing she remembers is grabbing the cut ends of a thread that was supposed to have magic running through it. Three lives ago… she doesn’t remember. Oh, she knows, but that memory is gone along with everything before it.

Her face hasn’t moved, she’s sure, but Fury smiles when Kaos gets to that bit of her mental narrative. “You gave up your entire memory for her. You, and Destiny, and Wild, gave up a total of two and a half thousand years’ worth of built-up power and memory for a supernova that would close the gap between our universe and a parasite universe.” Fury’s face grows sharp, her eyes looking at something even Kaos can’t see. “Do you know why? It was on her say-so.”

“If she ordered it, it was necessary,” Kaos says.

Fury snorts. “No. No it wasn’t. She’s had her memory for more than eight thousand years. Right from the start. If she’d done it, it would have only been her who died. She asked you to do what she wouldn’t dream of doing.”

“I am loyal to the Lioness,” Kaos repeats.

“You didn’t get reincarnated for eighty years after that. You were lucky. Wild came back sixteen years ago as a wolf. A wolf! Her soul was so weak that she became an animal. And who knows how long it’ll be before Destiny returns to us,” Fury says. Her voice rises in pitch, her aura stabbing out wildly. “Your loyalty is to a woman who thinks you’re disposable!”

Kaos fixes her eyes on a point out in space and says nothing.

“You shut down when you’re out-argued. I had more respect for your stars, Virgo.” Bitterness, mostly, tinges Fury’s tone.

“I knew this, Aries,” Kaos replies.

“Then why haven’t you joined me yet?” Fury asks, but she’s defeated. The shadows start sliding away from her, letting her wings free to move. She tests them, preparing to fly off.

“Leo is the one to lead us. It’s in our stars.”

“You of all people know how mutable the stars are.” Yes, she sounds bitter. Not angry, but resigned, and her aura stops spiking, coiling in on itself like a snake.

“Those haven’t changed.” Kaos spreads her wings and takes to the sky again.

“Everything changes, Kaos. Everything,” Fury says, but Kaos barely hears her.
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2007-07-05 04:08 pm
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Halfway done! [Angels Zodiac]

1. Labyrinth

Somewhere in the area of sky dominated by Ophiuchus, there is a rock. It has the strange property of being fixed in Earth’s sky. Astronomers haven’t discovered it, which is lucky, because they’d have kittens.

In this rock, there is a labyrinth. It looks like a straight line from the entrance. When you walk in, you’re in an eleven-dimensional maze.

There are twelve mazes. You can solve them if you have the keys. If you don’t, you stay in the maze.

If you get through, you’ll wake an angel. It’s up to you whether that’s a good thing or not.

2. Staff

Kaos is fighting something with copper blood and a temper. When she kicks, it flows away. Her magic doesn’t dent it. She’s not scared, yet.

It sends her sprawling and charges. Her foot gets stuck. Now she’s scared.

She closes her eyes, prays, and strikes straight up. There’s a sharp pain in her palm. Then the thing falls over, dead.

She pulls the staff out of the body and gives it a spin. Her glyph marks it in sapphire. It is perfect, and very familiar.

Capricorn says, later, that he remembers when she first made it. He won’t say how.

3. Memory

Leoran’s memory is paper, vellum, ink and clay. It stretches out in an endless circle, volume upon volume on shelf upon shelf in the centre of his castle. Given time, one can walk from one end of it to the other, the development of the Angel Capricorn spelled out in forty-nine scripts (one to a life) from cuneiform to hanzi to Roman.

He writes every day, putting down every event – no matter how small – in meticulous copperplate handwriting, so he can’t forget.

Because script never changes, though memories do, he reads aloud every day in languages his mouth never learned.

4. Paint

Of course Kaos doesn’t care what her house looks like. It’s new and that’s all that matters. She doesn’t spend much time in it anyway.

She takes care of it, but only to the extent of keeping the floors clean and the windows transparent. She doesn’t do it because she wants to. Given her choice, she’d live outdoors.

She doesn’t notice what colour the walls are - they’re not alive, so they don’t register in her vision. She has no time for things that don’t change.

Every time Wild comes over, the house is painted a different shade of green.

5. Friends

Kaos and Wild don’t talk much; neither of them feels the need. Wild understands Kaos; she knows what it is to be loyal. Kaos understands Wild; she knows what it’s like to be alone.

They’re both quiet, and when they’re on Earth they’re the ones who get stared at longest. Wild’s eyes and Kaos’s scars mark them in a way even the wings don’t.

Wild wouldn’t call them friends because Kaos is a pack mate, and Kaos wouldn’t because Wild is an angel. Both of these are more than friends, or family, even. They’re defenders, confidants, allies – and outsiders, together.

6. Shooting star

Somewhere above the sky, where gravity is negligible and air is rarified, there is a woman who flies.

She doesn’t ever look down at Earth, because she spent too long there to want to see it again. She looks away, up to the stars and the endless black of space, and thinks of diamonds and how inadequate metaphor is.

She’s too old to be idealistic, she’s seen too much to be an optimist, but from here she can believe that the heavens – the celestial spheres – are and will be perfect, now and forever.

Behind her, her black wings trail fire.

7. Encore

One of the rules of magic is that you never perform the same trick twice. That doesn’t extend to offensive magic – just the cards-and-doves type – but Amazon lives by it anyway. It’s more fun.

Of course, a weather mage never really has to worry about effects being repeated. She’s cast the same rain-summoning spell a million times, and gotten a million different clouds.

Her spells are tied to her voice, so she has a list of silly weather rhymes: nothing like “O feathered clouds that hang up high, let lightning hit this weird thing’s eye” to lighten up a fight.

8. Fireworks

Explosions are all well and good, but Tempest never really cared about the Fourth of July. Independence Day? So what? He never asked for independence; what he’s after is freedom.

And seriously, it’s not like he cares about government. No one would, if they’d just figure out what it is, which is perfidious. Humans are so memetic. Give one the idea of ‘law’ and they all pick it up.

That was before his perceptions became angelic; he understands the cultural aspect. He still doesn’t get the big deal about the titular quality. On the other hand, the fireworks are cool.

9. Selfish

Fury has been accused of being selfish. She cops to it. So what? She gets her job done, and what’s in her best interest is in everyone else’s, too.

However, it’s not helping the resistance.

If she were good with words, she’d sit down and write an essay on the difference between selfishness and self-centeredness, and why her sister has too much of the latter. Not being Capricorn, she’s not up for it. Anyway, it wouldn’t help much – everything she does these days is filtered through ‘stars and sparks, what a bitch’. Just once she’d like to be listened to.

10. Date

Leoran insists on taking her to a restaurant. She forgets which language she should order in, a child screams at her scars, and she doesn’t understand anyway – she doesn’t eat.

Next is a cinema. The figures look like humans but without auras, and an explosion makes her panic before she realizes it wasn’t real.

A week later he tries a museum. The main attraction is circa 3 000 BC and she can’t get near it without flinching.

When he asks her to a ballet, she grabs his collar and kisses him. It’s a hell of a lot easier her way.

11. Coin

Toss a coin a hundred times, and it’ll come up tails about fifty, or so say the laws of chance.

If Cosmos flips, it’ll come up fifty exactly.

If Kaos flips, the thing is just as likely to burst into a cloud of copper molecules.

If Destiny flips, it’ll come up whatever he calls it as.

If Fury flips, the odds will skew eighty-twenty in either direction.

If Tempest flips, it’ll look right, but every sequence of a hundred flips will be identical.

If Infinity flips, every toss will have the same result.

They don’t rely on coin tosses much.
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2007-07-01 11:42 pm
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Conversations

Amazon and Magic:

“Almost every human culture has something like angels in their mythology.”

“I wonder which came first, us or the legends?”

“I don’t.”

“Why not?”

“Do you want to be the product of some human’s overactive imagination?”

Rose and Joseph:

“Don’t even start. You’d believe anything if someone told you it was God’s word.”

“I’m faithful, not blind. Willfully or otherwise.”

“I’m not blind. I just know what’s real.”

“What’s real and what’s true don’t have to be the same thing.”

“That’s what real means.”

“What’s real is that we’re indistinguishable from anyone else. What’s true is that they fly from us.”

“Odd pheromones, or some superstition among -”

“That’s neither real nor true.”

“I won’t believe it’s some supernatural… curse, or something.”

“You don’t have to.”

Rela and SingKueh:

“One day you’re gonna die too. Everybody does.”

“I don’t plan to leave anyone in my wake.”

“Best start reversing engines now, that’s so. ‘S not just me you’ll leave.”

“I won’t even leave you. You’ll go out long before I do. Gloriously.”

“I’m not ‘Tatsu.”

“No one is. But you’re the same.”

“’Cept I still have something to live for.”
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2007-04-05 10:58 pm
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Damned if I'm not on an angst kick lately [Angels Zodiac]

Sorry, folks, it just happened this way.

Sarah-chan, I've taken the liberty of renaming Cosmos; Sakura just doesn't work on a guy, flamingly homosexual or not. Nalin means lotus flower, is Sanskrit, and is as close as I could get to cherry blossom and have it be a male name. Feel free to have me retcon this. Apparently Cosmos's name is Michi. This has been taken care of.

Writers in this 'verse will remember the Keys. I'm planning to do something with them but I have no bloody idea what.

Ophiuchus is the thirteenth zodiacal constellation, but it is not counted as a birth-sign. (Remember this, there'll be a quiz later.)

Kaos, Leoran POV, PG, 659 words.


They sit in a library, four angels in four corners, each waiting for something. Kaos can taste the anticipation, is nearly going insane with the need to reach out and grab one of the infinite possible delicate futures.

Libra, Aries, Scorpio. And her. Virgo. No, she’ll give them their names – the ones that don’t get spoken anymore. Michi. Colette. Karen. Weird syllables that don’t fall easily from her lips, but that signify what they are when they’re not being defenders of the universe.

Kaos doesn’t have any other name. She doesn’t have anyone else to be.

The walls are oppressive, the light itself heavy. The dust in the air vibrates in dissonance with the lines of destiny and Kaos shivers in yet another pattern.

Cosmos – Michi – opens his mouth, shuts it. There’s not a lot they can say. They were the first. Miya is oldest and Bianca is strongest, but the four of them were the first.

They sit in silence, each still, each looking anywhere but at each other.

Colette says, “They’ll be okay. Right?”

Michi says, “We were.”

Karen says, “Eventually.”

Their attention shifts to Kaos, who says nothing.
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There are three angels here. They are from different times, backgrounds, ideas. That doesn’t matter. The one thing that has always united people is a common enemy.

They try not to think of their names right now; they have titles, instead. They don’t think of those either. They’re not communicating, except through eye contact and extra senses and unity of purpose.

They are fighting. They are fighting things that look like humans. This is not something they’re prepared to deal with, but they have to. The others – the ones who know what to do, the ones who could break this illusion or just slice through it like so much mist – they’re gone, off to take care of more pressing things, and Ophiuchus knows that there are always more pressing things.

Infinity, who is trying not to think of himself as Leoran, slides in someone’s blood and falls over. Before he remembers his wings, something’s on top of him. Someone. He grapples, but his opponent has more experience and an extra fifty pounds of muscle. Hands close around his throat and his vision goes dark.

It clears briefly before being covered again by a rain of warm liquid. He wipes it off – it’s sticky. Blood. Tempest – not Alex – is standing above him, eyes wide. There’s something heavy on him and he pushes it off. A body, without a head. Tempest has killed one of them and the illusion hasn’t broken.

It’s not an illusion. They’re fighting people. There’s no time to think about it now; there are still five or six opponents and they have to keep going. Spirit says a few words and Infinity feels his breathing ease. A healing spell. He and Tempest avoid looking at each other as they dive back in.

Now that he’s sure – sickeningly, coldly sure – that they’re human, he can use a single spell, and does. Five words, some kind of bastard child of Latin and Arabic, and their hearts stop. Simple. Effective. Tempest knocks people away with his staff while he chants.

Their enemies fall down dead around them, and Spirit walks up to the pair. Without speaking, she checks them for injuries. She’s about four shades lighter than usual. Tempest is white as paper. Infinity feels that all the blood has left his body.

They’re uninjured, and Spirit has the presence of mind to ask about the key they came for – a small piece of twisted metal, something they wouldn’t look twice at on the street, but an artifact powerful enough to open worlds.

Infinity punches the glass it’s kept behind, takes it out, and hands it off to Tempest. Then he bends over and throws up, heaving until he’s sure that he’s gotten rid of anything he’s eaten in the past year.

He still tastes salt and copper.
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2007-04-01 08:19 pm
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Leoran Intro [Angels Zodiac]

Leoran origin story! Yay! It is weird and present-tense and gives Bianca some desperately needed character development and I had to do all sorts of interesting research into the year 2546 BC! Also it contains many long sentences.

Leoran, Bianca, and Kaos, 2,311 words, G.


Leoran is alone. Finally. It’s been a hell of a day. Maybe two days. His watch is broken and he definitely can’t see the sun from here.

He’s in a library, heavy with the weight of thousands of years of knowledge. It’s dark wood and heavy velvet, row upon row of leather-bound novels and encyclopedias and journals. The windows are stained-glass. It’s much, much more spiritual than a church.

He is curled up in an overstuffed brocaded armchair with the oldest book. It’s small, unassuming. It’s written in cuneiform on metal pages. He can read it with next to no effort. He isn’t, though.

He’s thinking about the fact that he wrote this. Not him, personally – the boy who wrote this wasn’t called Leoran, he was called Jayvern, and he didn’t have black hair and he wasn’t born in England and he couldn’t play the sax – but in all the ways that mattered, they were the same. Leoran runs his hands along the spine of the book and remembers making it, even though he’s never held it before in his life.

The script is neat, precise, aligned perfectly from left to right, just like his Roman-alphabet handwriting. It is a record of his life starting in the year two thousand five hundred and forty-six before Christ, though of course it isn’t marked 2546 BC. At the time, it was the third year of the reign of Enhengal.

The journal seems much more real than anything Leoran has ever seen before. More real than any novel or schoolbook he’s ever held. More real than anything else that’s happened on this surreal, impossible day.

The first entry begins, “I, Jayvern, the sixteenth to hold the title of Infinity, hereby set out to chronicle my efforts…”

Leoran spreads his hand out over the book, the metal cold under his fingers, and leans back against the chair. His wings intrude on his field of vision, black as night and twice as mysterious.

He has wings now. That happened first. Well, what happened first was, he’d been approached by the most beautiful woman he’d ever seen in his life and called a name he’d previously heard only in math class.

He’d been waiting for his turn at bat in fifth-period gym. She’d walked right up to him, through the field and right in front of the coach and the other students, and no one had noticed her at all. It was like a dream, except dreams never smelled like fresh-cut grass and sweat, and his imagination never could have come up with her scent of incense and snow.

She stood in front of him. “Infinity,” she said. “Take my hand.” And he did, without even a moment of hesitation. It was like he knew her already. And once he touched her, he did.

Her name was Bianca, and she was the Angel of Aries, and her title was Fury, and her blood-red wings meant death.

And he knew himself, suddenly, much better than he ever had before. Because his title was Infinity, and his black wings meant eternity. And he remembered how to use them.

He spreads them out now, trying to find a comfortable position for them. They’re awkward, the feathers make his back itch, and they make him overbalance half the time. They’re big, strong things, and though the bones are hollow – as are all his bones now, he hears, though the magic makes that not matter so much – he’s sure he could hit someone with his wing as hard as he could with his fist.

He ends up with them draped over the arms of the chair, trying to ignore the broken feather stabbing him in the shoulder blade.

So then they’d gone flying. He can’t quite remember where they’d gone – places all over Earth, places he’d never seen before that at any other time would have taken his full attention, but at the time they all blurred together, joined by the pure rush of flight.

He can fly now. He may never get over this. It’s like he’d always dreamed of. He can put up with itchy feathers and awkward steps for the joy of flight.

He wonders if everyone dreams of flying, or if it was just him, from the memories he has of his past. He hopes that it was just him, because he can remember the longing, looking out his window at the sky. Some days it felt like his heart would fly out of his chest, he wanted it so bad. He hopes no one has to go through that and not, someday, get wings.

When they’d landed, it was not on Earth. It was a barren, desert landscape, reddish dust and no wind – Mars. He had stopped breathing at some unnoticed point before they’d broken atmosphere. He hadn’t noticed.

Her castle was old and reddish-brown and perfect, a conflation of Gothic flying buttresses and turrets with geometric garnet-and-gold tiles, tessellating endlessly through the hallways. He’d been taken into the main hall and the front room, and both had been large, but he is sure that there are far more and grander places there.

He’d asked her to clear a few things up, and she’d obliged. It hadn’t taken long. The memories had all been there for him to access, when he’d tried.

He looks around the library – his library – again. “Infinity Angel Capricorn,” he says, his lips barely moving. “Whose power is in knowledge and whose wings are black as space.” That’s what she’d said. And, “Whose life is devoted to order and learning, whose magic deals in boundaries and limits,” he repeats. Words he knows he’s never said before, but that he wrote, a long time ago. In the journal he’s holding, in fact.

His fingers run across the embossed script, reading each word out loud in a language his tongue finds unfamiliar and his mind finds like coming home.

He’d asked, “Where is the Lioness?”, because that was important. The ruler of Leo, the oldest of all of them, she should have been the one to find him.

He remembers, from lives past, her golden wings being the first thing he knows, like waking up to the morning sun.

“She’s not here,” Bianca had said, facing him across a marble table older than Stonehenge. “She’s not with me.”

“You’re her sister,” he’d said.

Her amber eyes had gone flat. “Families fall out.”

“Where are the others?” he’d wanted to know.

She’d said nothing, for some time, staring at her short, red-lacquered fingernails. “They’re with her.”

“Why am I with you?” he’d asked.

She’d given him a long, cool stare, and then said, “Because you are the last one, and I needed you.”

He’d stood up then, turning away from her, and clenched his fists. “I’m not a game piece,” he’d said, all but growling.

She’d remained sitting, as composed then as when he’d met her. “I didn’t say you were. I said I needed you.”

He remembers being angry, and confused, because Bianca is supposed to be a weapon – not a leader. Miya is the leader. Leoran is the researcher. Bianca is the killer. They all have roles. This new aspect of Bianca was strange, unfamiliar, a strain of wrong against this day of right.

“What’s changed? This isn’t right. I can’t remember…” he’d said, turning back to her in the red and honey light pouring through her windows. The sun’s rays set fire to her wings and her eyes, a holy vision.

Gabriel, he thinks now. No, Michael, a warrior. Or maybe Lucifer, fallen from grace. But even if any of those names are real, she is none of them. She is only Fury, of Aries, wishing she could lead.

He turns a sheet in his journal, and another, until he comes to a passage he knew would be there. He reads aloud words in a wild and dead language that translate themselves, in his mind, to: “Upon the fourth day of the harvest month, the angel Destiny of Pisces spoke thus: that in a time farther from now than now is from the beginning of our lines, the angel Fury of Aries will grow resentful, and overthrow the angel Lioness of Leo. And it may come to pass that our lines will end.”

He wrote that ages ago, and he remembers hearing it: how Destiny had looked terrified, the words of prophecy tumbling out of his lips in a language that hadn’t been invented yet. How shocked Fury had been, and how the Lioness had simply fainted, gone white as sand.

He runs his hand down the edge of the metal page and cuts himself. On instinct, he sticks his finger in his mouth; when he takes it out again there’s no evidence he was ever injured. Much faster healing times. He’ll get used to it, sometime. His blood tastes different, but he can’t say why.

She’d said, “If humans can change, so can we. I can’t live the same way anymore.”

He’d said, “We’re not human. We gave that up for this.” He’d thrown his arm out in a circle, encompassing her castle, her wings, the auras he’d felt clashing around them.

“She killed you. She put you in danger, where you weren’t supposed to be, and you died. Does that not bother you?” she’d asked, finally standing up. She’d flapped her wings, her skirt swirling in the disturbed half-pressure atmosphere.

He’d shaken his head. “No. I came back. I’m standing here now, and I’m supposed to be with her.”

For a moment, he’d seen her aura, black and red and terrifying, the shape of a raven as she glared at him. He’d glared right back and stood his ground, because though he hadn’t known much he’d known that she was against the Lioness, and that was enough to sign her death warrant.

But she is older than he; the last time she died was nigh on fifty years ago, and he is new to his powers again. He is glad it didn’t come to a fight, because if it had, he would have died again. And he might not have come back the same.

It hadn’t come to a fight. She’d backed down first, turning away from him with her eyes closed. “Then go to her. Go to your precious Lioness. And when she betrays you again, don’t come back to me,” she’d said.

He’d left. He’d known where he was going, of course. Saturn was home. That had led him here.

And here he sits, hands on a journal older than some species, in a room that speaks of ages. Ancient, just like him. Or some part of him, anyway.

He hears the click of boot heels on hardwood, and the door opens to reveal a young woman. She’s small, with black hair, white wings, and green eyes. She wears combat boots, green fatigues, and a blank expression. There is a small red fox by her feet.

“You’re Infinity?” she asks. “The Lioness sent me.”

“Kaos,” he says. It’s not a question – he knows her well, or did. “She did? Miya? Is she – where is she? Why didn’t she…” He stops. Come for me, he wants to add, but doesn’t.

“Bianca got there first. I only found you – I’m sorry. I didn’t find your aura until yesterday, and her raven…” she says. Her voice is rough, like she doesn’t use it much, and lower than he would have expected. She keeps her wing-tips well clear of the floor, bouncing slightly on her toes. She moves constantly. She does not fit in this library where nothing has changed in thousands of years.

“It’s not your fault,” he says, and it isn’t. Kaos sees auras. He knows this. He also knows that she follows orders, and that she wouldn’t have looked for him until the Lioness told her to. When she betrays you again, he remembers.

“I should not have let the location slip. It is my fault.” She bows, her long braid falling over her shoulder to pool on the ground in front of her. “Forgive me, Infinity.” She is frozen still and it worries him in a way he can’t define.

“Forgiven, then,” he says. She straightens, returns to motion. Much better. Her fox scrabbles up her fatigues to sit on her shoulder and stare at him. Its eyes match hers.

“The Lioness says that you'll be formally introduced tomorrow, and that you should try to rest,” Kaos tells him. “Meet her when dawn comes on Venus,” she adds.

“How will I know when dawn comes on Venus?” he asks. There’s something he’s missing, someone…

And then a flood of light comes from behind him, casting long sharp shadows from their feet to the bookshelves; Kaos does not even blink as she looks into the light, her wings so bright as to be almost invisible. He turns around, a hand held up to block the light, and finds it unnecessary. The room returns to its former state as the source comes into view.

It – she – is an elegant, long-necked bird with feathers of red and gold, her eyes glittering like black glass as she spreads her wings. He holds out his arm, on instinct, and she lands.

“Ildri,” he says. The phoenix nods, confirming her name.

“She knows. Tomorrow, Infinity,” Kaos says, and turns to leave.

“Wait. Fury – How long was I down there? What did I miss?” he asks.

She doesn’t turn back, but answers with a tinge of regret in her voice. “Eighteen years,” she says. “Things change. Tomorrow. Goodbye.” She walks out of his library. He runs after her, but she’s disappeared. Teleported.

Ildri comments that he shouldn’t worry, that the two of them will find out later.

“Yeah. You’re right.”

Before he goes back to the armchair, he finds the bookshelf labeled ‘Aries’ and pulls out the latest journal.
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2007-02-10 02:48 am
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I just wanted to draw a picture that showed Hosi from the back...

This was going to be a drabble. It... grew up. They're in the House, to stop you wondering. I have no idea when this happens. For the benefit of those who weren't there when I invented this, there's a large room in the House with maps of (and gates to) every world in it; that's the teleportation room.

Why yes, Hosi is hanging around a lot lately, why do you ask?

Hosi, Leoran, and Kaos, G, 2 452 words.


The woman is… unnerving, Hosi thinks. It’s a good word, not least because the alternative is ‘fucking scary’.

She doesn’t talk. That’s the biggest problem. Hosi is half-certain she is a creature, with the wings and the wide-eyed staring and the silence. The two things holding her back are that the other one with wings, the man, acts perfectly normal if a bit uppity, and the fact that she refuses to allow that a creature could make her feel so frustrated.

It’s not just that, though. She’s small all over, with no chest to speak of and no hips and a very narrow waist. She has the bright green eyes of a Life Mage or a witch. She has the air of command, the stance and the stare that Hosi had to work so hard for. Even in a ratty shirt and trousers, with scars on her face and her breasts bound flat, she has a kind of graceful confidence that sets Hosi’s nerves on edge.

Standing next to her, looking down at the top of her graceful, confident head, Hosi feels eight feet tall, three hundred pounds and gawky as a lamb that’s just getting its legs.

Hosi is seethingly jealous.

The woman introduces herself as what sounds like “Kayohs”. Hosi looks it up in an Iguerisan-English dictionary and eventually finds it under ‘Ch’. When she reads the definition, she barks a laugh. No one that controlled should be labeled ‘great disorder’.

She meets up with Chaos’s man the next day in the library, when they’re both going for the same book. She defers to him, because it’s one of those chivalry things, and he defers to her because apparently chivalry works backwards on their planet. When she makes a sarcastic remark about his brain overheating he counters with one about being seen and not heard.

They spend the rest of the day debating magical theory and the little annoyances of being stuck in place with unnatural leylines, or as he calls them, warped threads. It turns out Kaos – spelled with a ‘K’, he says, from the Greek, which sparks another hour-long discussion when she fails to catch the reference – can see leylines. At all times. Including with her eyes closed. Hosi finds herself not quite so jealous.

Kali makes some comment about power and responsibility, and Hosi doesn’t catch herself in time to avoid responding out loud. The man looks at her oddly until she feels compelled to explain, her hand-waving ‘my goddess’ coming out at the same time as his confused ‘who were you -’

He grins when he hears the explanation and then goes off about his phoenix, which makes her stare in disbelief. Phoenixes, after all, are creatures of the sky, which can’t be tamed and which play merry hell with Saljerian airships. His phoenixes are different, and they spend some time comparing notes.

They don’t stop talking until they realize that the painted sky on the ceiling is changing, the black and blue of night replaced with a yellow dawn. He goes back to Kaos’s rooms, waving, and she remembers that she never asked his name.

Two days later they meet up again, this time in the kitchens. Kaos can’t cook, he explains, so he does it for them. She explains that she knows how that is, and digs out spices and meat from the cupboards. He’s interested – has never seen the herbs before – and she ends up teaching him how to make farm pudding.

He takes it back with him, and this time she gets his name. Leoran. Sounds Western.

It’s another week before they run into each other in the library and Hosi is completely sick of dealing with the people here. She tells him that his gender is full of idiots who think with their reproductive organs and he tells her that her country is full of cowards who never step outside a library. She cites six years of farm work and he counters with the fact of his ability to understand the large volume that he’s holding. She takes one look at the title and informs him that there’s no way he could understand it without the library’s translation spell. He says the language, yes, but she should take a good look at the concepts.

This distracts both of them, since it’s an Ancient Lfenmar treatise on the role of the menstrual cycle in magical ability, a subject both of them turn out to have strong opinions on. His, of course, are wrong.

She’d been reading an obscure manuscript in Imperial Aramaic involving the influences of the stars on those born under rising Leo. It all sounds ridiculous to her, but when she mentions that, she finds out why he’s got wings.

Out of idle curiosity she looks up a more current work with love horoscopes. He is not pleased when she points out that Capricorn/Gemini pairs are very rarely stable. She is not pleased when he informs her that since she doesn’t have a sign she will clearly never be in a relationship.

They veer off into a bullshitting session about destiny, which Leoran thinks is there as more of a guideline, and Hosi thinks doesn’t exist, in the face of all contradictory evidence. She asks what his girlfriend’s opinions on it are and he gets very quiet.

He tells her that Kaos has only followed destiny, her entire life. When he first made a move on her, she was confused, because her library – the one full of prophecies – had told her that Leoran was destined to be with someone else.

Hosi finds this creepy and tells him so. He agrees, and says that it was probably worse for Kaos. They both take the anecdote to support their own positions.

Hosi starts reading up on magical barriers.

Over the next week, she calls in favors from several of her more artistically inclined acquaintances. By the time she meets up with Leoran again, she has a working model of a leyline-avoiding blindfold. It’s green silk with black runes, and Leoran looks completely stunned when he takes it from her.

He can’t quite manage to get out his thanks, but she knows from his reaction that it’s there anyway. He puts it away in a pocket of the robe he’s wearing and makes a weakly cutting remark, and Hosi allows herself to be distracted, though she can’t resist taking the chance to hit him while he’s down.

The next day he finds her while she’s plotting leyline diagrams, full of effusive, thrilled thanks. Kaos slept well last night, he says. She couldn’t see a damn thing, the blindfold was so effective – no twisting energies, exploding stars, infinite distance to distract her.

Hosi tells him she knew it would work, she made it didn’t she, and hits him in the head with a scroll to get him to focus. They spend the day in a language lesson, as she teaches him the grammar of Iguerisan and he shows her how to conjugate regular verbs in English.

The day after that, Kaos shows up again, elegantly striding past the bookcases as if they were no more than brick walls. Hosi feels the hair on the back of her neck stand up but tries to be civil, since the woman is thanking her.

It’s surreal. Hosi’s never been knelt to before.

She ends up snapping something unkind, which she immediately feels guilty for, but Kaos just stands up, looks at her inscrutably, and walks out. This is when Hosi realizes she didn’t say ‘you’re welcome’. This, she suspects, is because Kaos isn’t.

Leoran somehow manages to seek her out every day the next week, and their verbal sparring reaches heights previously unknown. They also make a fair amount of progress charting the strange leylines that twist through the teleportation room. They want to find out if any of them connect at any point.

It would be easier if they brought Kaos in to work on it, but Leoran does not mention it and Hosi does not ask.

She doesn’t see him for two days and on the third, she makes Mahabra cry. Irvine says something derogatory about her parentage and Lirael glares at her, and she storms off to be a dog-sired cow in peace.

She happens to pick the wrong room for that. She’s opened the first door she saw without a nametag, and it’s turned out to be a gymnasium, padded floor and mirrors on three walls.

There is only one person in it and that person happens to have wings and a long black braid, though her other features are obscured by speed. Hosi is fascinated by the way she moves.

After a few moments the motion stops and Kaos is facing her with the same careless grace that Hosi cannot stand. The winged woman cocks her head and waits. Hosi says nothing.

Two minutes later: “He’s mine.”

It takes her a minute to figure out that she’s talking about Leoran. Hosi doesn’t want him and starts to say so, but immediately has to reconsider. Does she? He’s the only man she’s ever met that can think at her level. Kaos narrows her eyes at Hosi’s hesitation.

A moment later Hosi finds herself flat on her back, looking up at the woman from a much-less-flattering angle. It’s not helping her self-image any that it takes her a few minutes to get her breath back while Kaos stands above her with perfect confidence.

“Don’t try.”

She stands up, sputters something incoherent about him being too young for her, then finds her missing brain cells and tries to pull together an argument. She’s a Life Mage, damnit. She has a goddess to hold on to. She doubts Leoran’s enough of a purely intellectual being to stay for very long with someone who won’t put out.

Kaos just stares at her, waiting for the point. Hosi doesn’t have much of one. When Kaos gets in her personal space again, Hosi hits her in the stomach.

It’s like hitting rock, but luckily Hosi’s trained for that. Kaos stumbles back, just a step. Hosi puts a bit more space between them.

“You’ll regret that.”

Yeah, sure, Hosi says. But Kaos will regret it more, she hopes. Kaos is still staring at her. She is, Hosi realizes, still waiting. She doesn’t know why Kaos is bothering. It’s not like anyone would leave Kaos for her.

“That’s true.” Hosi realizes that she has spoken out loud.

Then she parses the words. Of all the arrogant – and the woman is just standing there, face still in that perfect mask of blankness, eyes wide and curious.

She challenges her, of course. She steps forward, she shouts, she even gets another punch in before she’s sent sailing halfway across the room, her skirt ripping where it catches on Kaos’s heavy boot.

She takes three deep, deliberate breaths, grabs the skirt so the tear won’t show, stands up, and leaves the room, all without looking at Kaos again.

When she catches sight of the tableu in the mirror, she nearly hits it. It’s broken her illusions. She’s not the triumphant heroine of this story, that’s for sure, and maybe she won’t be one at all.

She sleeps for twenty-one hours and when she wakes up, she goes to the library and tears her research notes to shreds. Let him solve the problem with his perfect, ley-sighted girlfriend. She no longer cares.

When she hears from Lirael that the nice Southern boy has been looking for her, she heads to the library. Where else would one find him? She waits by their fireplace.

Half an hour later he turns up with a large plastic notebook in hand. He’s saved the research notes. He’s also talked to Kaos. That’s as far as he gets before she turns her back on him, not out of spite but because she’s doing her level best not to cry at the utter uselessness of it all. Unfortunately that looks the same as spite from the back.

He tells her that he had a higher opinion of her than that and she hears the swish of feathers as he leaves. He takes the notes with him.

It cuts deeper than she cares to admit.

She doesn’t eat for the next two days but spends a lot of time sleeping, leading to Irvine’s snide remark about hibernation and a screaming fight that lasts more than an hour. When she gets to her own room, Kaos is there, waiting by the bed, looking like she owns the damn House.

She’s out of energy, out of rage, so she sits on the bed and glares into Kaos’s impossibly deep eyes. Kaos stands with her weight balanced, her legs forming an isoceles triangle bisected by her plait, and looks as if she could stand there forever.

“Just fact. Not demand.” That’s how she starts. Again, it takes Hosi some time to find the same mental space that the woman inhabits.

It damn well sounded like a demand, is what she wants to say, but instead she spits out a curse and an insult and also a demand of her own, one to get the hell out and stay there. Kaos does not move. Hosi contemplates calling Kali.

“I did not want you hurt.”

Hosi stares, then stands up again, hands on her hips, forgetting in her anger how awkward she feels around the smaller woman. Once she’s on her feet, of course, she remembers, and the embarassment only fuels the fire. Kaos stands and listens as Hosi roundly insults her lineage, her intellegence, her appearance, and her ability to act like a human being.

“Projection.”

If that weren’t the most random single word Hosi has ever heard, she might be able to come up with a suitably cutting response. Instead she just stares. Kaos looks at her, head tilted.

“Of anger, fear, insecurity. I was like you. Once.”

It sounds like a goddess passing judgement and Hosi is momentarily filled with fear. Then she tries to mount an argument based on the impossibility of deciding what anyone is feeling once one has accepted projection, but deflates in the face of that expressionless confidence.

An alternate meaning of chaos is the disordered state before the universe. Hosi wonders how old the woman is, or her memories. While she’s busy forcing her neurons to fire, Kaos turns around and walks out.

“I apologize.”

The door is shut before Hosi can dignify that with a response.

Two days later Leoran is back in the library. They dive right into research and banter and it’s almost like they never stopped. Neither of them says a word about his girlfriend.
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2007-01-16 10:06 pm
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Two drabbles [NaNo 2006]

Life

They tiptoe around each other, not really knowing where they’re going. They trust each other implicitly, each depending on the other as naturally as they depend on their own skills.

They’re quiet. He writes, pen scratching late into the night. She trains, steps thudding through the castle. When they’re together, sometimes they fight. She teaches him thirty ways to kill a man. Sometimes he reads to her. He teaches her to paint pictures in her mind.

She’s too good for him, and he doesn’t understand why she stays. He’d be surprised if he knew she thinks the same of him.

Death

She’s always given herself totally to the fight. It’s why she’s so good at it. She can see the way the battle unfolds, see the way the soldiers waltz, incomprehensible unless one’s part of it. She understands the dance.

So when the tempo changes, she’s caught off guard. By the time she figures out the new beat, it’s too late.

She’s been dancing with the wrong partner, and her staff’s buried to the hilt in her lover’s chest. He’s looking up at her, smiling his forgiveness. She stops, the steps forgotten, and the drumbeats of war echo through her mind.
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2007-01-09 06:56 pm
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NaNo drabbles (Character insight)

Same idea as our original Angels Zodiac, some characters kept the same, some scrapped entirely, some shamelessly twisted to meet my own ends, and at least two made up out of whole cloth. Spot the old guys, Sarah-chan! 12 drabbles at 100 words each.

Aries

She’s a soldier. She knows war. She is war. She’s every war god ever invented, pale and black-winged, tall and imposing, armored and shining like the sun. She appears on battlefields to dying men; she isn’t supposed to, but it’s those moments that she finds most precious. She stands above them and doesn’t smile – that would be an insult – but takes grave joy in their lives and deaths.

Her sister can talk tactics and formations and atrocity all she wants, but she understands still less; war is beautiful, but the beauty lies not in the battlefield but in the soldier.

Capricorn

He’s a researcher, a scientist. His magic doesn’t have the wild, unstable elements the others’ has; he studies, and he experiments, and he is very, very subtle. He has limitations, yes, but when those are met he can do things they would never imagine.

The lioness values his memories. So does he. He puts them down on paper, so if the unthinkable happens and he loses them, his reincarnation will be able to find them again.

He knows the fighters find him frustrating, writing when he should be training; he doesn’t mind. This is his way of being a warrior.

Libra

She’s sociable. She keeps the others talking, and it’s hard, but she’s the only one who can. Some days she thinks it’s not worth it; some days she knows it’s the important thing; no matter what, she stays as calm, as friendly, as kind as she can.

She doesn’t let them see her doubt. She has gifts – she might be the most powerful of them all – but she’s not sure she knows what to do, so she doesn’t, and keeps her secrets to herself.
Close to her heart, where she keeps her love and her doubt, she keeps theirs too.

Cancer

She’s a healer. She was a warrior, but in one life or another she fell in love. She can’t remember him now. She can’t even remember her children. She does know, without remembering, that she swore then never to take another life.

She makes a study of white magic and trains up a younger healer, a mother who is allowed to know her children. She has been jealous of that, but it’s passed. The whole world, she thinks, is her child, and she loves it as such. Though it doesn’t often show its love for her, she knows it’s there.

Leo

She’s a leader, has been since she has memory, which is longer than most civilizations have histories. She remembers the rise of Rome and its fall too, but also the rise and fall of a million, a billion smaller empires, nations, cities. She can name them all, but rarely does.

They live in the back of her mind, tactics to use, situations to avoid, inspiration to fight. Her civilization – her world – her galaxy – her soldiers – will not fall, will not fail, so long as she rules. It’s not what is destined to happen, so it won’t. She won’t let it.

Taurus

She’s stubborn. She takes forever to make up her mind, but once she does there’s no changing it. She likes that in herself, so she sticks to her beliefs, and finds it strange that the others change so quickly.

She fights because she knows, a certainty hard as diamond, that they are in the right. They are justice, they are justified. She decided eons ago, she won’t change her mind now. Her magic responds to this, and she fights with her feet planted on stone that isn’t there.

The others look to her when they forget where the Earth is.

Aquarius

She is focused. It’s her nature to be solitary, and her duty to be perfect, so she is solitary and perfect. She does, rather than tries; she knows herself, and the universe, and how to change her place in it. The right butterfly, flapping its wings at the right time, causes catastrophe a million miles away. She doesn’t understand this however she tries but she feels it in her blood, in her fight, in her name.

She cannot change history herself, she knows that, but she can be the beginning of change, and so she makes sure that she is.

Scorpio

She’s a river, with rocks on the bottom. She’ll sink ships like the Sirens, and all the while look as peaceful as the sea. That’s her magic: looking at her, you would never guess how deep she runs. Her skill is in subtlety, her power is in misdirection.

She didn’t want to be here. She is passionate, independent, she takes direction badly if at all. This is not her fight.

She plots her revenge in rapids ten thousand feet down and keeps her surface calm, so calm, that they can’t even suspect that her spirit is as strong as theirs.

Sagittarius

He is torn. He wants to fight but, he hears, it’s not destined; he shouldn’t try to pick his battles. That was done before he was born.

He suspects that destiny isn’t all it’s cracked up to be, and it seems he used to be right. He browses all of their libraries looking for histories. They used to be less strict about records, but then, they used to be less strict about a lot of things. Who could fight whom, to start.

His life can’t be written beforehand, anyhow. Not even the lioness can predict where fire will flicker next.

Virgo

She’s not tame. It’s even in the title they gave her, one she’s adopted as her name since she can’t pronounce her original one anymore. She growls when she speaks, she has golden eyes, and her hair stands out like a mane around her head. She couldn’t read until she recovered the memory of learning and she still hasn’t remembered how to write.

They tell her about her past incarnations, and how she’s always been beautiful. She wets her hair down and chooses soft words and glares at her reflection in the mirror.

Her eyes persistently refuse to turn brown.

Gemini

He’s mutable. It’s built right into his sign, his name, and he likes that, because he’s never been one for sameness. His powers are all about chaos. He likes computers because he appreciates the challenge of predicting where his own magic will take him. He’s not managed it yet; he wishes humans more luck.

He sometimes plays with rain and wind and thunder, floods deserts, erodes mountains, or he starts to anyway. Where the spell goes after he’s cast it isn’t under his control, and he stands in awe of what he’s built. Then he does it again, but differently.

Pisces

He’s too gentle. He’s been told this. He’s been told he’ll never make a fighter, and his skills as a healer don’t exist. He’s the youngest by two thousand years; maybe this has something to do with it.

He doesn’t let himself mind, and he turns to studying, so that if he can’t be helpful now he’ll be helpful later. It takes him a millennium to find the spell that lets him pull a scry out of the ether. He’s an excellent prophet, they always tell him. He doesn’t tell them he sees the future because he’s escaping the present.